If I have any more active followers on here, I have a new blog - it’s mainly my fitness and dance, with the odd reblog of rather attractive fit people, but there will be more personal stuff on there like this occasionally :)

http://cali–t.tumblr.com/

I’ve not used this in months, but I just need somewhere to write this down and get it off my chest, even if no one sees it or pays attention.

Before the both of you I was okay. I had my insecurities and self-conscious issues, but I was okay. But you’ve now added to that list doubt, anxiety and bigger trust issues.

You were never my friend, ever. You only looked out for yourself, did whatever would benefit you, and then when I couldn’t take anymore, played the victim, and made me doubt that I was a half-decent person. I’m not saying you’ve not changed in the time, you may have done, but I can’t wrap my head around what I did that was so bad to you, for you to betray me like you did.

You were hurting, but were too much of a coward to not hurt me.

And now at every turn when I try to move on with my life, I end up being sucked back into the drama of the past, re-living, re-analysing, questioning everything to try and make sense of how I’m still the one still hurting.

r.i.p tumblr. laterz.

so drunk to the point i’m gonna injure myself trying to make myself look normal with makeup…. so not okay for work

so excited! my luck certainly is up right now :D <3

not felt this at ease in a while - world come at me bro

I’m scared to get close and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all
The higher I get, the lower I’ll sink
I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim

for once in my life, I’m gonna do something for me.